IndieAgora

Some Game Talk I want to leave here in case I'll copy paste it elsewhere, since this seemed to bypass pretty heavy censoring filters for now:

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=F2vJbE8w2EU?feature=shared

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Apologies For The C3nsorship, Call Of Duty:

The only people fighting modern Nasz in any way closer to what needs to be done to fight modern Nasz and the Nasz Nation.

It is too foolish to think letting yourselves get arrested by Nasz 3nforc3rs or asking them to stop is going to stop them.

They need to be dealt with like Nasz, more than "punch3d", they are m4ss mrd⅝ring civilians and bringing t3rr0r all across the worlds through they influence and agents in positions all across the world's governments.

The people keep assembling huge m4ss3s of mobilized bodies to do nothing but hand themselves over to 3nforc3m3nt that is working for the N*z*s and are literally N*z*s themselves?
Instead, those amassed, mobilized populations needs to do what was done in the past, and f1ght the Nasz everywhere in every way, take them out of all positions of power, do what was done to M0ss0l1n1 if they r3s1st the people.

The st0p1d way has been exhausted now, has it not? They are working to d3str0y everything and pass dr4c0n14n laws and measures giving dangerous powers and 4rming gov3rnments again the ordinary civilian population everywhere.

People also need to act now to put a stop to the use of d4ngerous and difficult to f1ght or d3str0y k1ll3r dron3s and make them 1ll3g4l as w34p0ns for w4r and enforcement, you cannot allow such a difficult to c0mb4t w34p0n in the hands of anyone, especially not g0v3rnm3nts that are always 1nf1ltr4t3d by a0th0r1t4ri4ns.

This has to be done now, as fast as possible while it isn't more difficult, and to try to sweep clean in a thorough way all Nasz and c0mpl1c1t supporters in p0wer all over the world, and to go 4fter, just like was necessary in W II, their whole logistical and distributive system, their communications, their coordination and ability to remain organized and fueled and armed.

You will not get rid of or defeat Nasz in any other way than the ways in which ordinary people had to fight it in the past, before even any m1l1t4r1es finally joined in or g0v3rnm3nts pretended to actually care at all.

Once they s1ck the nearly ind3structible k1ll3r dr0n3s on the populations everywhere to protect themselves and t3rrify their sl4v1sh h3rds (all of us), the c0mb4t against any and all tyr4nny has to continue, even though it will be much more difficult for most people, and that is why as much as can be done now, including d34ling with w34p0n designers with knowledge of those things and recreating them and facilities m4k1ng them, need to be dealt with in dr4matic and dr4stic ways, intelligently, but powerfully and as permanently as possible, to make sure their most advanced and difficult to take down w34p0nry isn't implemented before lots of them are t4k3n 0ut of p0w3r and 1nc4p4c1t4t3d and unable to return to p0w3r.

No one else but all the people, the same like who mobilized and showed their huge numbers repeatedly in pr0t3s7s, are going to do what needs to be done now that you've seen the other methods are doing nothing but wasting crucial time that these m0ns73rs are using to pass more restrictions and 4rm1ng themselves against the publ1c to make the f1ght much more d34dly for the 0rd1n4ry people who have to f1ght it, URG3NTLY, N0W.
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My body is pretty badly injured by the life of this world, and from 10 years ago, and even from just last year, things have become increasingly difficult.

I was thinking how unreasonable the expectations are for people in general and their labor and struggles daily and all that is compounded and their living conditions are bad, and they have to go pick up heavy and expensive groceries and carry them back home as I did just now, then there were a zillion things I had to do before I could even get to rest on the bed, finally including a shower since I was soaked in sweat and in pain. Now I'm just hurting and feeling sick in bed, and this is all just very common and frequent activity for me and the poor throughout the ages, and they had less in many cases, like worse bathing options, less or no amenities, less comfort, like some horrible bed, but I'm probably not so far off even, plus all the pain and injuries to balance out and take away any pleasure from these luxuries like a bed that can scarcely comfort me or soothe me or help me in recovering.

Then there are ridiculous societal expectations which never seem to take into account the pragmatic lived realities of most people, like the expectation to have friends and maintain social interactions and spend money going out and having dinners when even fast food is now given opulent pricing? All this just leads to rage and resentment, and I truly hope it is being felt intensely by many people, and enough finally to get something done about it, even if just suic*dally lashing out, but especially towards all those pretentious people dictating things to the overburdened or asking for even more when even a speck is enough to be the last straw and lead to Bacchic Berserker Body Disassembling, tearing "Haves" limb from limb. People should fear pestering anyone, and the law is nothing these days apparently but a measure to sustain and prolong injustice in numerous cases.

Look also to the "empaths", often the most narcissistic Borderline Personality Disorder integrated criminally insane punks on the planet, living with perfect health with nothing to do but bother people at their wit's end and then try to run behind one measure or another to spare themselves wholly deserved retribution.

The people living in an even greater and deeper hell than me have never had it good, even for more than a moment and in just the humblest ways at best, and the Empire dares to come on television with the arrogance to call them "fat" and to say "do you know how many fat G*z*ns I have seen" as they are being starved to death while being slaughtered in every way by the same.

Yet none of this is enough to lead to the necessary m*ss sl*ughter that had occurred historically repeatedly to temporarily remind those at peace what they are doing to people.

Lu*gi is hailed as hero, but no one dares copy them, and the entire thing is more than likely a test, just to see how pathetic and afraid the crushed population really is, since other m*rders are miraculously never solved or take years but he was caught almost instantly, as was the even more ridiculously fake sounding story of "V*nce B*elter" with his numerous strange jobs and endless resume, probably cooked up by too many cooks in the C*A Kitchen.

There is no way to have the life shown for the poor even in films under current conditions, everything is unmanageable and unbelievably overwhelming and cumbersome.

There might even be some stuff flying in the air outside, since someone sneezed outside, now I'm sneezing repeatedly, and I never do, and each sneeze is more pain from the muscles that tense and the injuries from carrying back food for 200 CAD that will only last a few days, and which make a recent order of 4 pizzas for 133 CAD or so seem like it wasn't all that expensive! 133 CAD for 4 Pizzas! That was unthinkable just a few years ago! No one should dare bother me, I'm MAD!

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=ruYeLnD8sdA

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Excellent! This is what is needed now, the bad people want "be calm, act and pretend to be cool and rational, be unemotional about what is happening".

I saw a crazy add for "Sleep Country" where they say something like "don't dooomscroll, you won't be able to sleep, take care of your sleep", and it showed the "people" obeying and putting down their phone and refusing to look at the "doom" that they were looking at, which is mainly one big thing right now.

This ad features Eugene Levy. It seemed like inappropriate timing at the very least, plus it appeared as an ad on a video that mentioned G*z* too.

Even more unusual and paranoid seeming is that when I try to look up the ad in case it has been uploaded, it comes up with a video which has a picture with the writing "MODERN SLAVERY TRAP" written at the top, lol, when I looked up a Eugene Levy Sleep Country ad.
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So there is a big long story about the horrific pain I was experiencing earlier for a long time, but it seems to have resided now for about 12 hours or so, after climaxing at a certain point, but I dreaded going to the hospital because of how they treated me there last time, 6 years ago, and I couldn't even move and they were forcing me out of the hospital and they were refusing to do the necessary procedure as I was being sliced from the inside. Finally, through great difficulty I used different ways to try to convince them to finally do the thing and it was resolved, but my God, how much they fought against me as I was incapacitated by horrific pain that even frightened the ambulance driver that he checked in on me later because he had never seen anyone in such a state. That same thing occurred again now by a copy that confirms the same things I had believed caused it in the first place, but this time it was only slightly less intense as it wasn't slicing me, but was still bruising and hurting me almost just as much, and it reached such intensity that I prepared to go to the hospital, even though my health card has long since expired and they would potentially charge me insane amounts too, besides doing everything in their power not to solve the problem. So at the height of pain I just focused on a few words while trying to squeeze and redirect or distract the pain to other areas or do anything, but nothing helped. It was similar to being without medical help in G*z*, but at least I had my bed, toilet, and running water, but even having all that didn't matter since all I could do was writhe in pain, and could not even care about the luxury of not having to writhe on the hard ground or rubble instead of a big, comfortable, bed.

None of these issues even mattered, and nothing could draw away attention from the pain, which has left me with instant post traumatic stress about what has just occurred and terror about re-living it again at any point, like if it will emerge again in a few minutes or hours or in many years.

I'll copy paste some things from an email I wrote:

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I want to k*ll that Quaker (the fictional Quaker Oats mascot), he just wants people dessicated and was probably obsessed with the idea of living mummies.

https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/William ... 2_1666.jpg

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Penn grew up during the rule of Oliver Cromwell, who succeeded in leading a Puritan rebellion against King Charles I; the king was beheaded when Penn was four years old.[11] Penn's father was often at sea. Young William caught smallpox, and lost his hair from the disease; he wore wigs for much of his life.[12] Penn's smallpox also prompted his parents to move from the suburbs to an estate in Essex.[13] The country life made a lasting impression on young Penn, and kindled in him a love of horticulture.[14] Their neighbour was the diarist Samuel Pepys, who was friendly at first but later secretly hostile to the Admiral, perhaps embittered in part by his failed seductions of both Penn's mother and his sister Peggy.[15]
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He was a bald ass mummy himself!

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After a failed mission to the Caribbean, Admiral Penn and his family were exiled to his lands in Ireland when Penn was about 15 years old. During this time, Penn met Thomas Loe, a Quaker missionary who was maligned by both Catholics and Protestants. Loe was admitted to the Penn household, and during his discourses on the Inward Light, young Penn recalled later that "the Lord visited me and gave me divine Impressions of Himself."[16]
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So he wants to inflict so much suffering that you "see" the invisible God.

https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Inward_ ... _World.jpg

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Quaker belief in the Inner Light extends back to founder George Fox.[2]
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The Quaker belief that the Inward Light shines on each person is based in part on a passage from the New Testament, namely John 1:9, which says, "That was the true light, which lighteth every man that cometh into the world." Early Friends took this verse as one of their mottos and often referred to themselves as "Children of the Light". Moreover, Friends emphasize the part of the verse that indicates that the Light "is extended to all people everywhere", even "people who have never heard of Christianity in a meaningful way or at all can share in the Light, if they sincerely respond to God's grace. For when Gentiles, who do not have the law, by nature do what the law requires, they are a law to themselves, even though they do not have the law. They show that the work of the law is written on their hearts, while their conscience also bears witness, and their conflicting thoughts accuse or excuse them on the day when, according to my gospel, God judges the secrets of men by Christ Jesus (Romans 2:14–16)."[6]

The principal founder of what became the Religious Society of Friends, George Fox, claimed that he had a direct experience of God. Having explored various sects and listened to an assortment of preachers, he finally concluded that none of them were adequate to be his ultimate guide. At that point he reported hearing a voice that told him, "There is one, even Christ Jesus, that can speak to thy condition." He felt that God wanted him to teach others that they need not depend on human teachers or guides either, because each one of them could experience God directly and hear his voice within. He wrote in his journal, "I was glad that I was commanded to turn people to that inward light, spirit, and grace, by which all might know their salvation, and their way to God; even that divine Spirit which would lead them into all Truth, and which I infallibly knew would never deceive any."[18] Fox taught: that Christ, the Light, had come to teach his people himself; that "people had no need of any teacher but the Light that was in all men and women" (the anointing they had received);[18] if people would be silent, waiting on God, the Light would teach them how to conduct their lives, teach them about Christ, show them the condition of their hearts; they loving the Light, it would rid them of the "cause of sin"; and soon after, Christ would return in his glory to establish his Kingdom in their hearts. Fox called the Light destroying sin within as the Cross of Christ, the Power of God.

Regarding this, Fox wrote, "Now ye that know the power of God and are come to it—which is the Cross of Christ, that crucifies you to the state that Adam and Eve were in the fall, and so to the world—by this power of God ye come to see the state they were in before they fell, which power of God is the Cross, in which stands the everlasting glory; which brings up into the righteousness, holiness and image of God, and crucifies to the unrighteousness, unholiness and image of Satan." The Cross is no "dead fact stranded on the shore of the oblivious years", but is to be a living experience deep in the heart of the believer, and changing his whole life. "You that know the power and feel the power, you feel the Cross of Christ, you feel the Gospel, which is the power of God unto salvation to every one that believeth." All real experience of the Cross must lead, he thought, to the same way of life that brought the Master there—to the way of humility and non-resistance, of overcoming evil by the sole force of love and goodness. To Fox it seemed that a high profession of Christianity often went with a way of life in flagrant opposition to this. He writes to the persecutors: "Your fruits have manifested that you are not of this (wisdom from above); and so out of the power of God which is the Cross of Christ; for you are found in the world, out of the power of God, out of the Cross of Christ, persecuting."[19]

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I was trying anything to find any relief. I was grabbing and yanking my dick, stretching it like to tear it off while trying to just repeat things in my head, but the pain was not something that could be ignored.

https://youtu.be/S8iMjepw_b4?feature=shared

That's why my hand has that metal thing on it, from trying to crush my penis to divert the pain.

https://youtu.be/jlpD41zwTrs?feature=shared

So I was praying for help and relief, not knowing how and if it would come, and I kept getting the whisper in the mind that it will pass and it finally did, so far, but what the heck? Like I was fine basically, hurting and sick in other ways, and then struck with pain after pain in various ways until it was this pain that was the most of all, all in a chain of hours.

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=SoSRcqm0W ... ure=shared

https://www.yahoo.com/entertainment/art ... 22723.html

He barely had any time with his kid who was born 2017, also how did he conceal their names from everyone?

The one with the old seeming lady, even though 60 shouldn't be that old seeming if she was his age, was a horrific, surreal, contradictory, nonsensical sounding story that was so funny sounding even though it was the worst thing ever since she said she called him in and he died because of that and that is her husband who was taking care of her too. It would be so difficult not to laugh though, making it even more cruel and horrible:

https://youtu.be/hSFWgKl-O-A?feature=shared

https://youtu.be/_mQdOO35dwE?feature=shared

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=Rja8eiOOf ... ure=shared

Oh no, they edited out a great part where he laughs at her in her face and she says "its not funny!", it might be in there somewhere still but I skipped all over and couldn't find it.

https://youtube.com/shorts/T87oV1uxFKA?feature=shared
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People even die from the anesthesia, so I wondered that even if I made it to the hospital and managed to argue a procedure again, that it might be the end of me, even that the doctor is a Z and now the Z are especially active in harming people. That my care wouldn't be as good if he didn't think I might be a J, which could be how I got the procedure done nicely the first time.

What kind of a sick hell is this world?

My concern was that if I died, what I might suggest to my wife to do in case I do, since all I leave behind is a mess, filth, the broken down, formerly mouse infested apartment we returned to clean up last year and all these things I am too injured to clean up and avoiding furthering my injuries, plus I cleaned it up repeatedly for the pest control which showed me how painful the process os of moving all my books that I never even have time to look at or enjoy as it is one crappy thing happening after another!

Why I'm describing this is because this is the plight of at least some, maybe in some ways all, most, or very many, of the common people living through the world, and other scenes and scenarios from different ages would likely be just as, or even more, far more, cumbersome, difficult, and nearly impossible to navigate well, like if it was a chore to even access any water or to clean oneself or whatever.

The demons at the top, living in various forms of extreme comfort and security, with the best care at their beck and call, want all humanity to be pushed further and further down into totally unecessary difficulties and totally isolated and alienated from care or help, they want our conditions worse than any fantasy peasants, in a world that crushes them both physically and mentally in every way, so that there is no hope at all.

When I was in so much pain though, all I could do was try to focus on religious things to try anything to help me when there was no help. That is why the people of G*z* have no choice but to be the staunchest now in the rawest form of desperate faith, as there is nothing left at all as the world imposes upon them "religion" through terrible, Godless cruelty which comes from so much freedom and luxury to turn to the sport of oppression and malice and even adding to the hubris by jesting about it all, not knowing pain in the slightest in any comparable way, and not having empathy at all either, and they expect us to consider such vile things to be worthy of any forgiveness or life at all and to get away with it even if they ever stop at any point.

They don't need to know pain, they just need to stop being able to inflict it, but there is no hope in my opinion for thoughtless souls that can do things like this in the first place, nor would pain teach them empathy or change them for the better or remind them of the plight of people or "others", when they can barely even care for their own as demonstrated numerous times when the State and the Ideology and the Mechanisms seem to be threatened, then any amount of humans can be sacrificed for something that was never human in the first place and feels no pain and only exists as a parasitic malformation in the minds of certain maniacal imbeciles.

The suffering returned after a whole 24 hours, but I seem to be alright again now for a bit, so another 24 hours, and moved from just fruits and vegetables with high water content to pho, which has noodles as well as vegetables.

Some of the ideas for things to write came and went and I may return to some ideas or bring them up again if they seem to fit in. The suffering has given a lot of thoughts about the nature of things and the reality again and how comfort can make people get lost in delusions as can extreme pain, but with extreme pain the delusions seem to be of a totally different nature than what gets prioritized more during extreme physical suffering. This is visceral education, and may tend to be easily forgotten as the other things creep back in rapidly as soon as one feels even a little better. Neither of the two eould likely represent any safe bet for "the real", and it can be said that "the real" is mainly inaccessible and may not even exist, it is just a an idea about something that could supposedly exist, but for the most part we are not accessing anything stable like that really, and can't confirm if we are ever anyway, leading to just the convenience of pleasurable experiences and that which displeases us in various ways, we don't even know if anyone is saying the stuff we think they are saying or what, if anything they are thinking.

Two things are making the rounds online in some political circles, the Mehdi Jubilee video and the Nelk Boys Propaganda Interview. They are interesting, especially together, since one is ending up being about a guy who supposedly can't call himself a fascist without severe repercussions, and the other about how at least one of the Nelk Boys is seemingly testing an amazing get out of trouble free card of claiming to be an idiot and making a wide-eyed face of a total idiot, sounding and looking totally like one might be trained to believe, at this point, precisely what an idiot would appear and behave like. These ideas are running on my mind, and also the long game going on with someone named Candace Owens calling Macron's wife all kinds of things, and now they are being sued for making such extreme claims, probably at the behest of France's "Far-Right", but possibly being manipulated to try to get something passed into law that puts up a defense for world leaders and those associated with them, so that more real and serious issues if ever brought up can be silenced, so an absurd and undeniable case of defamation being used to create a precedent against bringing up things, jumbling the real with the false as all the same.

The real and the fictional being put on a similar level in some cases or even the fictional outpacing and being more potent and effective in certain ways than the real is also something that may come up in my thread called Boethiah Khaine:

viewtopic.php?t=3

Besides that, weird information has been coming up to me regarding things I mentioned in that thread also.

I'd like to express a lot of these things or capture them in text in posts, and I will continue to try, like I had considered making a new thread that deconstructs a lot of things pertaining to religious and magical thinking, as well as how much disrespect is in some ways necessarily involved in having beliefs at all, like specific beliefs require thinking some other things are unbelievable, that we don't believe them and that they don't fit in, to really believe something.

Then I saw this person's page and site and their description of some of their practices and pursuits and what really interests me is how I was annoyed by some of their approaches and what it was pulling in from modern ideas and modern pollution, sort of like these people and most people are working backwards rather than by scratch:

https://followersofthewheel.org/

It repeatedly chafes, insults, and rubs me the wrong way, and I want to figure out and study what exactly keeps bothering me so much about what they write, how they wrote it, why their whole project and effort tends to irritate me. Right off the bat, the specificity might irk me, but then there is also what I had said about any belief being also non-belief, but in cases like these, they are talking about things I do believe in some way but in a way that I don't, and both might say that the other doesn't believe or doesn't believe in the same, and each may be just appropriating and hijacking, even unnecessarily, certain words and terms and references that they find useful and convenient and which may enhance the sense of such things as having something claiming that these are established more in some dimensions that others and even ourselves may be more prejudiced in appreciating, like supposed "historicity" while there is a state of paucity of information and access to supposedly "authentic users" who were little different from any other anyone today, so what does it really matter? Even if we were right with them, how much could we have really understood about their understandings? It amounts to just words and sounds and symbols people are using, with no access to what might really be in their minds even if they stood before us, but they are long gone instead, with modern assumptions being injected into everything, helplessly, since people can barely control that since it has become like common language, almost inescapable.

Then I was reading writing about r*pe in mythology, and that all annoyed me also.

Then I was thinking about things I like, compared to things that I don't like, and things that are soothing for me to bring to mind, others which agitate me and make me feel ill, also how those things can ne so much easier to ignore totally while in certain physical states.

Also, something very bad seems to be going on here, like for a week or more now with increasing intensity, maybe waning but still occurring, like right at the close of writing all that, I moved my hand under a spider hanging next to me, and some of the web was lower even and it looked like it attached to me and might then be ascending up my arm, but it had fallen in the dry sink, so I moved it from there gently to the wall where it quickly found another web. I've noticed a secret, that spiders seem attracted to high sodium levels and something they might be able to sense coming out of the skin and into the atmosphere from salt processed through a body, since then they descend and appear nearby, and their webs seem to be salty potentially also.

A.I., which also lies a lot these days, claims:

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Sodium ions play a crucial role in the formation of spider silk. They are present in the liquid silk stored inside the spider's abdomen and help to keep the silk proteins soluble. During the spinning process, the concentration of sodium and other ions changes, which allows the proteins to bond and solidify into a strong fiber.
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So I was screaming in horror suddenly, a unique scream like a screech of rrrrrrrreeeeee rrrreeeeeee, imagining it was ascending up my arm where I could feel the web still after seeing it swing over. There seems to be just constant trouble and stress going on as every moment someone in G*z* is screeching and groaning, gasping, and taking their last breath.

https://youtube.com/shorts/rkwH9gLuS2E?feature=shared

https://www.eastvalleytribune.com/local ... f887a.html

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The Jewish population in Maricopa County, Arizona has grown by nearly 20% since 2002, according to a study from Arizona State University in 2019. While the county has seen an increase in synagogues, particularly in Scottsdale and North Phoenix, some J community leaders have indicated that the growth of the J population has outpaced the expansion of synagogue capacity. This has led some J residents to find alternative places to connect, including online platforms like Zoom, on-campus gatherings, and within friendship groups.
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https://jinsa.org/arizona-sheriffs-reaf ... ael-dec30/

https://www.msnbc.com/the-reidout/reido ... rcna157106

https://www.threads.com/@kerovpetar/post/DEms1eUsBxr

Nothing happened so far about anything. So humanity will be taken advantage of until they stop letting themselves be treated like crap, except that they can't choose any necessary actions because they are "too much to ask for", "oh well, we are not in a position to do anything much".

Moved this post from other topic as it doesn't seem relevant there.

Thank you! That was an accident, it was supposed to be here.

I wrote this on the other site, but replying to comments on updates only shows up on that site, right?

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kFoyauextlH replied 1 second ago
I may have posted it there on accident actually while I was looking at it and had this other thread opened. Thank you! I was not paying attention to the subject area and went to the quick post area. I’ll try to look at the subject to make sure where I’m posting if I have multiple windows opened, sometimes it gets mixed up because of copy pasting links, so switching pages back and forth.
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I found more connected to the "taken advantage of" theme, without meaning to, by looking up Baldur's Gate 3.

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=4_siBJ70K ... ure=shared

Disturbing story, and a very sad ending, lol, it is a funny but tragic end to the video.

That Luality person has been at this social media stuff for a while now, and their image sort of reminds me of my display picture on the other site.

I have only seen this site in the version showing up on Chrome, I haven't made enough space on my device yet to try to see how it might look on Firefox, but are there display pictures here, or not yet?

You mention personal pain a lot, what are you referring to?