Simplicity Vs Complexity

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I think people who think things are snobbish are annoying anyway. They are threatened by anything non-communal since it represents some sort of thing falling out of their range of access or influence in their social domain.

I likeithe idea of the recluse as a kind of new noble, but then again I don't personally identify with someone who doesn't share with people. It is hard for me to imagine satisfaction without expression, even though I am generally happiest alone and in my own thoughts and I'm greatly stressed by people.

​​​​​There are certain communities and cultures which realty promote social contribution and cooperation and participation with the world system or society. In often hear things like "functioning member of society" "giving back to society" as high and noble goals.

I buy into it as well somewhat. Though I don't view the escape artist too harshly, I want to escape too, but then again feel chained back by hellish Bodhisattva vows and wishing to do good and feeling responsible or guilty for not trying or leading people behind.

Plus, there isn't really anywhere to go. Even though I make what I like, I surely wouldn't make these things if there were no people around, there would be no reason to do it really at all, because then who cares?

Who cares even if I remember all this trash? So I still do all this because of people and for people, people I don't even like or want.

I don't think I could stomach not forcing myself into people. I think my whole life is about imposing myself into everything, irrelevant of political content, simply as a form of living so long as the content is self identifying for me as a spiritual vessel.

My life is about being like an infectious disease, a virus that only wants to live, not even knowing enjoyment of life or having a reason, see Rebel Without. A Cause ( my threads and posts are all winding and connected ).

I even lie about the truth mattering to me, in a sense, because I know people don't understand what I even mean about the truth even though I tell them.

To me, Truth is only Violence, its Force. The Reality is what has Impact, what makes itself known through its undeniable substance of pressure and force.

So if I say the truth matters to me, what I really mean is shoving myself down peoples throats, making them suffer my existence one way or another, or finding ways to make them take the medicine.
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I create unique forms or combinations which are secret representations of myself in order to inject them in people, I make them unpalatable and unique so that I know it is me they are taking in and not something else.

I reject things which are too common, or seem to be the vessels of something else or used by others, which is what I mean when I say "I do not want to work for someone else". That includes what people call God or Causes or Organizations or anything which isn't Me shoving Me into people.

I don't even need to accomplish it much but constantly do it as a form of life and living.

If there were no people around, I wonder what I'd do then, with the simple life. It is likely I would structure it to reflect me yet again.

People often don't even perceive the narcissism behind their every desire and goal and action.